Training was utterly awesome tonight. I was dreading it, and as it began I was feeling exhausted and unhappy about trying to make it through…but students were mostly leading tonight. And at one point I looked up and realized that I was in front, that everyone was still, that for the first time I had the chance to lead the entire roomful of people. And…I…had…so…much…FUN! It’s like somebody flipped a switch–I went from dragging and suffering in the first fifteen minutes to totally abandoning myself to it for the rest of the night. I barely noticed that sweat was pouring off me in greater quantities than ever. I got to participate in some beautiful moments, actually using the stuff they’re telling us all day, actually living and breathing it and reaping the rewards. As Matthew says: we don’t know anything. We only ever stumble across the truth. But I tripped over it and fell flat on my face tonight, and I loved it and it was GREAT. Tonight was the first training when, as it ended, I thought, “Already?”

Off to bed with me! But thank you all for your awesome notes–sometimes when I don’t have time to write I have time to read, and I sneak off to the computer for a minute, and your encouragement keeps me sane. Y’all rock.